My wife and I were crippled with grief for months after 9-11, as our son and daughter had been at the World Trade Center that fateful morning, escaping by only minutes Islamic terrorism's terrible anger in the collapsing towers. Our grief expressed itself through a mood of gratitude, but our gratefulness had no objective personification. Later in the year, we were in Las Vegas and browsing an antique shop. We came upon several reproductions of Victorian angels done as bookends. Instantly, we knew we wanted them in our home. They could provide a location, much as would a shrine, for our continuing emotional turmoil and our gratitude. Prior to this time, as a secular, humanist atheist, an emotionally barren ideology that accompanied my allegiance to Left liberalism, I had scorn for persons whose households contained religious icons, shrines, framed inspirational poems and prayers, and illustrations. Superstition! After 9-11, that political ideology dropped away from me as a repugnant thing, much as the survivors of the bombings might brush ashes off their shoulders. So I discovered myself susceptible to a range of emotions I had not previously experienced. And I discovered the reason for those material manifestations of belief, worship, hope, and gratitude. Now, whenever I see garden sprites, angels, cherubs, elves, even plastic deer, stone frogs, and stone rabbits, I feel a connection to the persons whose emotional longings embodied themselves in their yards in the approaches to their homes. The icons are not objects, but doors inviting us to walk through them to another world. As in this photograph of the under-utilized side entrance to a home on my 4.2 miles jogging route, the neglected, little angel seems to be saying, that is not the door, I am the door.
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